Hayden Purcell
Jul 23, 20231 min
This poem was written by my friend Hannes Penttinen; I felt it resonated with personal experiences, and therefore wanted to share it.
Where once I felt at home in your arms
A poison fills my heart.
And the longer I stay, the harder it is to leave, skin to skin, the more I bleed.
The promise of a kiss that never comes,
False warmth of a whiskey
against the naked arctic cold.
I touch your hand as if
There were many miles between us
And your smile, inches from my face,
clenches my jaw.
Which you saw.
Screaming into a radio
But it's on the wrong Channel.
Screaming 'till my throat bleeds
But the silence is still louder.
I don't care if it would kill me,
Just want it to fulfill me.
It would be easier
To pass the wait
If I filled myself
With hate.
But I can't do that.
I could write a book about the things you don't know.
But if I did so,
It would be better for you,
were you never to have read it.
And for all the things I could say,
Better never to have said it.
If I could just lie,
Maybe it wouldn't be goodbye.
Maybe I could give it another try,
But I doubt it.